Be Kind

It’s been a couple of months since my last entry. I’ve been very unmotivated, very tired and uninspired. The holidays are quickly approaching and as some of you know the holidays are NOT “the most wonderful time of year” for a lot of people (me). I wish I could close my eyes and wake up in February, skip all the holidays and my birthday. For some (me) the holiday season is nothing but a reminder of what and who we lost. I’m extremely blessed and extremely grateful for my friends & family! They always make sure I’m ok, they check on me several times a day. If I don’t pick up the phone for a few hours they will appear at my door knocking like the police (I’m not exaggerating). Last year I decided to stay home during the holidays and although I know I have my friends & family I just rather be alone. People always tell me I’m always so happy and cheery and unless you know my story you would have NOOOO CLUE that my life is / has been turned upside down. I’ve said this before but before I leave my house I put on my mask which I call my "happy face". I’ve been spending a lot of time at home trying to focus on my wellbeing, journaling, doing a lot of self-care, I’ve been taking walks, catching sunsets, grounding and meditating. I've been focusing on me and my needs. This journey hasn't been easy but I'm here SURVIVING.

Also, I have a trip coming up in a few days. I’m going back to Greece. I’m excited but packing has been a challenge. How am I supposed to pack for 6 days in a small back pack? My toiletries alone require their own bag lol. I’ll TRY my best but make no promises to make an intentional travel post. The last couple of trips I truly was in the moment enjoying every second so my phone / camera was not in use.

I’ll end it here I just wanted to drop in and give a quick update.

Be kind because you have no idea what people are going through.

Life is Lifing

Hello Everyone!

I yet again, apologize for the inconsistency! As of lately I've been feeling very off, not like myself, not motivated or inspired. Health wise I've been going through it, I'm not energetic, I'm tired all the time, literally drained for no reason. I don't want to leave my home and to make matters worse I've been having complications with my fibroids. How many of you have fibroids? Seems like more and more women are getting them. Why? Is it our food? Environment? I know hormones plays a big part but there definitely has to be more going on. Depression has been playing a role in my lack of motivation too, it's literally kicking my ass. As for my job well that's another story, it's just not serving me like it once was, the energy / vibe is just off but hey the insurance is great lol and right now I'm putting that to great use. I'm just one cluster fuck of a mess. When I think I'm doing good I get smacked in the face with something to bring me back down. One minute I'm on the road to going on my glow up journey then I'm not. My head is just as all over the place as this post. I'm being very transparent here and probably saying too much but I know I'm not the only one that has been feeling the same way so I'm here to let you know YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Life has been lifing and its been a rough one for us all. 

Well I'm going to end it here. I just wanted to come on really quick and give you an update. 

My Apologies

"A strong woman knows she has strength enough for the journey, but a woman of strength knows it is in the journey where she will become strong"

...why am I apologizing?  Well, it is not only an apology to you, my readers but also to myself, for the lack of consistency.  I had so many plans for both IG, Youtube and this blog.  Plans to move...

Life Update Feb 2020

I had made an IG post saying I wasn't going to make any New Year's resolutions but I did low key set some goals for myself.  One of them being to really get busy with this BLOG because

Vacation Over

Annnnd just like that vacation is over!!!  Ugh, why can't these days go by slowly?  More like a slow work week!  WHY?

Vacation was nice, it was everything we wanted it to be - quiet and relaxing.  As I mentioned in my previous post we weren't looking to "turn up", we simply wanted some quiet time.  I didn't take many pictures, I wanted to enjoy the moment, BE IN THE MOMENT.  My phone spent a lot of time in the safe which is SURPRISING!  If you know me you know I always have my phone in my hand whether it is on or off is a whole other topic lol but its in my hand regardless.  We often miss important details because our nose is buried in our phone, social media rules most of us sadly.  This time around was different tho and it was nice.  We slept a lot, we "worked out", I focused on my mental and spiritual self.  I wrote in my journal almost every night, I colored, meditated I went to the spa multiple times, I took care of my body.  It felt good, no it felt GREAT, AMAZING, WONDERFUL!!!  I did not have anxiety at all, I was super relaxed both mentally and physically.  Why don't I do this at home?  Because life - that's why.

 I promised myself to bring some of that self care home and just pick a day when I do it - a ME DAY.  I used to have this day as a teen all the way into my 20's then it stopped, not completely but yeah, it stopped.

As I mentioned I really didn't take pictures but I posted some on my Instagram - go follow if you aren't already so that you can keep up with me.

As usual thank you for reading       

labradorite crystal and a new journal

meditation literally on the ocean AMAZING!

his daily walk