Finishing off from a previous post now that I have the time (on the L train).

As I mentioned before shame often comes with my love of makeup due to people just not understanding me or the art.

One of my most asked questions is "why aren't you a makeup artist if you love it so much"? Well here's my response - lack of confidence! You need confidence and I lack it big time. I lack it with every thing I do!!! Bad - i know! I've applied makeup on 3 people and I was not satisfied with my work. I'm too critical and in the process I bring myself down, along with that comes fustration. I tend to think that the other person isn't happy even though they tell me different. It's fustrating just thinking about it because in my head it doesn't make sense. I know more than the basics n many do think I'm talented and I should be in the business.

Anyways, hopefully you can understand where I'm coming from. Maybe it doesn't make sense to you. Either way I figured I'd let you in my little twisted world. Feel free to comment with any feed back.

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  1. Hi Erika,

    Omg I feel the same way! I love makeup and any extra money I get I spend it on. My birthday was last week and that's what I asked for makeup and a desk. However, I don't have the confidence to do it as a living. When my family/friends ask me I do it and love the feeling of applying makeup on othera but I'm never truly satisfied...

    So at least we are not the only ones that feel that way in the huge world =)

    Jessica =)



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